Friday, October 31, 2008

Welcome to My Office...


Seeing as I had all this spare room in the condo, I figured we could move the Patio Furniture inside so it doesn't get damaged, and now I have an additional seating area away from the Tv, and the too confortable sofas.
I think when I go back into business for my self I will use this as a place to meet with clients.
What do you guys think?
For now it's not bad. But I am not sure about the future.
I mean it could also be a place to read or even do homework if I decide to return to school.
I guess we'll see what the future holds.

This is where I am sitting tonight to post my blog entry. :D

Thursday, October 30, 2008

I LOVE this stupid quiz...

... The Impossible Quiz..
So Crystal at work turned me on to it.
I tried the first version of it, and it was awesome.
The questions are so random it's ridiculous.
I think all you guys will like it.

It's kept me busy for a while... lol I do mean a while.
:|

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I am so lucky to have good friends...

I promise this isn't going to be one of those emo posts, but I just wanted to say thank you for giving me one of your favorite pashminas so that I would stay warm. You rock...
Thanks so much!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

W....T.....F......?!?!?!??!???????

If it weren't for Dlisted I wouldn't have even known these supper fugly things exist.
I guess this is the CROCKS version of UGS...
FUGGING SHOOT ME!
If I never see another pair of Crocks again in my life I will live to be a happy person. Crocks have to be one of my biggest pet peeves.
They're ugly. People say their comfortable. Then they start wearing them around the office. Then these people start to make excuses for why they are wearing them...
It sickens me... PLEASE STOP MAKING THESE FUGGING UGLY PIECES OF PLASTIC! HOPEFULLY PEOPLE WILL STOP WEARING THEM…

Day Dreaming ....




So here I am at the office. I could be doing something productive when instead I am day dreaming...



Deal's Gap one of the best and most difficult vacations of my life.
I remember the drive down almost like it was yesterday.


Mind you it was a while ago.


I remember the torrential down pour that hit us while caravaning south. There was so much rain hitting our windsheild that I honestly couldn't see anything. Infact no one could.


When I finally got the truck to stop at what may have been the shoulder (couldn't see) I put my hazzards on and felt like the truck was still moving. I checked ahead on the 2 way to see how the others were doing.


We all drove down, and trailered our bikes. I remember thinking "that's it, the poor YZF isn't going to even start when we get to the gap."


The drive to our resort was AWESOME. through the mountains. I especially remember a few of the road signs as we drove through the rocky mountains. Some were a little curvy some were just out of control, and I wish I could find a picture of the one that scared me most. Unfortunately I don't have it on my work pc, but it was similar to the one in the picture to the left exept for the fact that it looked like a "loop de loop". I didn't know what we were in for, but I was excited. :D
Driving a GMC Sierra with 2 bikes on a trailer behind you through these roads was awesome. I had such a good time.

Once we got to our resort the axiety set in. We didn't stay at the Crossroads of Time aka the CROT (That's what it use to be known as) We stayed at a resort 15mins away. It was really up hill and really up high! so geting the bikes off the trailer was going to be quite a work out. I also had trouble riding the bike down that hill because I only have the balls of my feet on the ground at normal levels ... extreem downhill roads make for an interesting ride.. and god forbid I have to stop...


AH the memories...

I was looking through some of the phots that were posted by the owner of the resort, and I can't tell you how much I miss that place.
The ride it's self is something like 119 cambered corners in 11 miles. Some are uphill and tight and some are downhill and tight. The whole purpose is to ride the 11 miles every chance you get.
Some people ride hard others with in their ability.
And some just make mistakes. When you visit the CROT, can stop in and take a gander at the Tree of Shame where peices of some ones favorite ride end up after a boo boo at the gap.
There are even stories about deputies having the misfortune of trying to catch a sportbike who was "speeding" through the gap. I think there is a picture on the bulletin board of his costly mistake. I think the deputy survived and was virtually unscathed. :D
Surrounding the gap there are numerous highways that are a joy to ride and make their way around some beautiful scenery and have some long hispeed corners.
Sigh ... instead stuck here.... HELP!



Friday, October 24, 2008

On Self Examination,

I just want to take a moment to touch on something that I never understood about myself.
My hubby is working late, and I had sometime to catch up on my reading. I found that there were a couple of posts, and/or comments that were made in reference to me.
These posts and comments made me cry. I was overwhelmed. This is not typical for me.
I especially found it odd considering that the things that were written about me were complimentary.
Isn't this odd?
I have always had a hard time accepting compliments let alone feeling they are deserved. I don't do well, but today I found it especially hard. I don't know why seeing a few compliments made me cry.
I mean it could be PMS, or something deeper.
I don't want to bore you guys with journey into my childhood, but seriously WTF???
When will I be glad to receive a compliment, when will it become an easy thing to do.
...
...
Now I am completely at a loss.
I'll get back to you guys on this topic another day... maybe when I'm not feeling so weird.

ok got myself edumacated....

It's PASHMINA... not paspina.. :D
And they are so cool they have an entire estore to themselves...
The Pashmina Store






I love it. I want like a million of them. :D

Google Image Search.. what ever number it is...

Compliments... Fun images.



Thursday, October 23, 2008

Borrowed Lise's Pashpina

She forgot it at my place yesterday so I thought I would wear it today... LOL. Sorry Lise. Hope your not mad at me. I have to say I am going to buy one for sure. Maybe even 2!

I want to yak!

I swear all the stress is killing me lately. I feel like just puking everywhere. I might just have to stick my finger down my throat to make the feeling go away.

God help me.

Speaking of puking, this is just something to make those of us who are feeling icky snicker at stupidity.

Shoulder pads.


I think I am going to purchase shoulder pads for me and all my buds.
I have a really funny feeling we are going to need them so that we can just rest our weary heads one on the other.
Man … What a life time…

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Treachery


I used to have this business partner.
She used to be a big part of my life.
I used to forgive her for all of her bad choices.
She never gave me a second chance.
She used me to start a business because she couldn't do it herself.
I let her.
She stole from me and the company.
I let her.
She got me kicked off a professional forum.
I didn't do anything about it.
She would take kick backs from other companies.
I never did it.
She made me out to be the villain.
I didn't defend myself.
Now she's started a new company.
We haven't dissolved the old one yet.
She owes me money.
I never asked for it.
She lied on her taxes, and stole half my write offs.
I let her do that too.
I introduced her to a lawyer for her frivolous law suit.
She didn't say thank you when she got a $25000 pay out.
She didn't pay anything back to me.
I was surprised.

Can you see who's at fault?
I can.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Thanks Foodie...

I want to say thanks to Lise for coming over last night and making the food for for us... I ate so much last night I was still full when I woke up this morning.
:D
I can't wait to steal pictures off your blog to post on mine... :D

Electric....

I love this family guy episode, because I remember being a child and having one of those onzie type pjs, with the escape hatch... Our WHOLE HOUSE was CARPETED! I loved shocking my brother. One time I swear I can remember seing the tiny little peice of lightening happen. :D Love it.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

On Defeat...


Is defeat really defeat when fighting a loosing battle?
Is defeat really defeat when somewhere in our subconscious mind we know the outcome before the battle even began?
Why do we fight for the things that we know are always the worst for us?

I wish I understood. If I did I would be able to help others who travel in those very same footsteps, and I could lead them in a better direction.

I wish someone had put some foot prints in front of me to follow (in my youth), but I didn't have a friend who cared enough about me to do that. The only people in my life then, were people who wanted to exploit me, and they did.

It hurts me to see my friends go through pain, especially pain caused by others. I can only hope that I can be there for them when the bad things happen. I can only hope I will be the friend they need to have around them. The Person who can bring light to what they think are the dark and hopeless moments. The moments that they think they will carry with them for ever.


I don’t believe for one moment that you were defeated. I don’t believe you should feel defeat. I want you to feel VICTORY.
You are victorious in removing something so toxic in your life that you have questioned, who you are, your value, what you deserve, and what you should want.
Don’t let the actions of others determine what you will receive in YOUR life.

Change your Mantra…
I AM WORTH EVERTHING I WANT! I WILL HAVE EVERYTHING I WANT. I WILL NOT LET OTHERS DETERMINE MY PATH!
No friend, boyfriend, family member will exploit my feelings for them.
I will do as much or as little as I WANT to do for the afore mentioned group.
It’s my destiny.



I love you. I am sorry for your pain. I am sorry that it just keeps happening.
Know this: You are an exceptional person with enough light inside of you to light the world aglow. You can show us your light when you're ready.


Hey Delilah....

...or should I say Sarah Palin...

I laughed at this... and I am sure you will too.

Thanks Keney for pointing this out to me.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Every one has a Story...

...as I find out while Nade is getting her hair done at Fairview mall. Her stylist is a 55 year old Lady originally from Croatia. She got pregnant at 17 and had to beg her mother to give her permission to marry the father of her soon to be born son. She had to run away, because her mother told her if she went ahead with it not to come back. She was a child bride and a mom at an age where children today are still not sure how to buy their own underware. Its reminiscent of my grandmother and her trials and tribulations back home. I love talking to the old peeps. They have so much to say.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Google Image Search 8

Ok so ... I thought I would do a search for pictures that dipicted stress.
As it turns out google came back with these for results. I am not quite sure what this first picture has to do with stress, but ok... Thanks Google.





SO...
Hope you guys are smiling.

About Stress...

So ...


I am sure by now you all know how I handle stress (not well)
My parents came to me with a problem yesterday, and now all I can think about is how am I going to fix it for them?


How am I going to make this problem go away.


Sometimes I wonder why my Brother who still lives at home doesn't do more for them.


I suppose I could have been a better daughter, and done more while I was there, but seriously I think I've done more than my brother has over all, and I know that I've always made excuses for him, but now I think that I'm done doing that for a while.





I am trying to find clients.
I am trying to find more work.
I am trying to find full time work.
I am trying to pay my debts on time and get them put away.
My husband is ready for kids. (SCARRY!)
My parents need my help,
but most of all I can't even help my self.


So now I'm stressed.
I feel like I have mountains of paper work to go through when I get home.
I am totally overwhelmed.
God Help Us All

THE COOLEST DRESS EVER!


Ok there is this dress, and it is a changeling of sorts.

I am surprised, that it's so nice. It comes in Jersey Matt, and some higher end fabrics.

Any how this one dress could be made into 40 different dresses.

The Cost of this dress is $400.00. Basically you are paying $10 a dress, more or less.
Now I don't know how many of the ways they have made to wear this dress are actually something every one would consider but still if you can find at least 4 ways you like to wear it, it would be like having 4 really nice dresses.

The company name is Butter by Nadia. I know the name is kinda odd, but I have to say I like this dress.

I might actually purchase one if I can hide the back fat. :D
Its being sold in one store in Toronto. Check out the site... They even have instructional videos on how to tie the dress into different styles.



Thursday, October 16, 2008

Sitting In the Office...


...Wondering what to do.

I need to pee.

I would like some coffee.

I would Love to smoke.

Yet...

I am alone in the office this evening.

So leaving my post to do any of these things seems to be an impossiblility at this moment.

I wonder if any one would be upset if I pee in their chair?

I wonder...

Further notes on the Mantyhose

After I posted about them I had some time to think.
I don't know who invented pantyhose as we know them today, but I am almost sure that they were meant to be devices of torture.
Some one out there hates women and invented them just to see us struggle.
Now, some one has decided what's good for the goose is good for the gander.
I am pretty sure some woman out there thought to her self... FUG this shit, why do we have to wear this shit and why do mean get away with so little.
I am going to try to make men like wearing pantyhose.
First I am going to change the name ... MANTYHOSE. Then I am going to try to make it cool. I think if I make them look like tattoos men might want to wear them to make them selves look cool.

Still i don't think this is going to be some crazy fad, especially because most of the men I know wouldn't be caught dead in pantyhose and the fact that they are so hairy that the hair on their legs would find it's way through them. (that would look really gross)

Just a thought.

I'm not sure about this....

Ok... I'm obviously not a fashionista, but I just don't get this.
I found a picture of this on another blog and I thought I need to look into this.
SO far I haven't seen people wear these.
As a woman, I hate pantyhose... HATE them... why would men want to take on that one thing that is one of the worst things women have to deal with?
Why?















Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Favorite Time Wasters.

Don't ask me why I watch some of these stupid shows, but for some reason I enjoy watching the stupidness and cattyness of show like The Real Housewives of New York.
It's ridiculous.
The woman in the middle of this picture is an actual Contessa.
WTF??? I didn't even now they still existed.
I can only wish.
They have cliques and things like that... they are fake to each other, and back stab each other. It's so fuging funny.
I never understood these types of women. I can never be a part of circles like that. As soon as groups of friends become that certain way I gracefully bow out. Cut and run baby cut and run.
But I can't help but watch this show and these crazy biznatches...
It's out of control.

So who wants to join us?

My cousin Peter his girlfriend Marie, Bobby and I should be attending if I can manage to purchase some tickets online at work tomorrow evening.

Since I have Saturday off, I figure this will be a nice thing to do since Bobby and I don't get out much any more since the introduction of the mortgage into our lives.

I am half scared out of my wits right now, and I haven't even made it to Canada's wonderland yet.
Here is the link in case you're interested:

Canada's Wonderland Halloween Haunt

I've spoken to a bunch of people who've been and from what they say it's going to be scary and fun and busy. I am totally looking forward to it. I know I'll likely have nightmares for at least a week after we go. Fun times.

If you are considering purchasing tickets, its cheaper to buy them online.
Hope to see you guys there.

On a side note.

After watching the news I am absolutely horrified to know that this election cost 300 MILLION dollars.

I am mortified so much money was WASTED on an election that gave the conservatives a few more seats, but for the most part put us back in the same position we were in yesterday morning!

WTF????

Seriously.

300 Million so half the population doesn't vote.

That money could have been put to good use. Feed some homeless people, put some of that money back into health care and education, ANYTHING would be better than this.

.... I quit.

OH CANADA...


...I am feeling all kinds of disappointment this election.

I never understood why it is that as Canadians we just let things go. We never get angry at our political system or the decisions they make. It seems that part of our Canadian Identity is to complain and then do nothing. I am so sick of what I prefer to call the Canadian Affliction. It's as if we as an entire country suffer from some kind of psychological disorder en mass. WTF???
Citizens of Police states are less complaint than we are. They riot, protest, bring attention to issues they care about.
Canadians would rather lay down and die.

Steven Harper Called an election, in hopes I am sure of getting out of his minority government and gaining a majority government. The Canadian government spent some ridiculous amount of money to have an election, only to reorganize 30 or so seats, and end up with another conservative minority government.

FUG! Something close to 60% of voters did not turn out. I can't believe people just don't care enough about what happens to us to get up off their asses and vote. Poor Mr. Dion looks like he even considered hanging himself when he heard the percentage of non voters.

Who are these non voters? Are these people apathetic, lazy or just young people who think they may not be responsible enough to assist the country in making a decision that could affect all aspects of each citizens life? Could these people be refusing to vote because they believe that some how all politicians are the bane of our existence? What ever the reason there are ways to go about making your feelings known.

Get involved in politics so you can change the way they work. Get to know your local representatives they are there to answer questions. Find out what their platforms are, decide what issues are important to you. Get involved with programs that support change in the way you would like to see change affect your community, city, or country.

There is another way to refuse the vote so that it's noticed. Not voting means nothing. Refusing a ballot brings attention to the fact that you as a voter are not pleased with the options that have been given to you.
Wikipedia says: While Canadian federal elections do not allow a ballot to be refused, the provinces of Manitoba, Nova Scotia, Ontario and Alberta, as well as the Yukon Territory, all allow voters to "refuse" their ballot at a polling station, which is then recorded as having been refused.
I am going to guess if you mark a ballot refused in Ontario it may be added to the pile that is scrutinized and later considered "spoiled" There has to be a better way than NOT VOTING.

Speaking of scrutinized votes, for those of you who did vote you may be surprised to know that not every vote counts... Every Camp has a group of people called Scrutineers, and their sole job is to scrutinize the ballots. If your "X" is artistic, or made in cursive writing, or any of the lines touch the out side of the circle, if it's too small, or you make a check mark, or anything other than a perfectly hatched "X" in the middle of the circle it is up to scrutiny and may be added to the "spoiled" pile at the end of the day and count to nothing.

(If you have any other information on refusing ballots post a comment and let us know.)

Both my husband and I got out there and voted. We voted for the candidate whose opinions and agendas are closest to our issues.

For us, we want social services, we want better education and health care. We don't want to continue these over seas wars on the behest of an American president, we don't want our services to become privatized. We don't want any more of the country's assets to be sold off to private companies.

So based on what I just wrote I am willing to bet you guys are smart enough to guess that I didn't vote for the torries. It's also fair to say that I am NOT IMPRESSED that they are back in power even if it is a minority government.

We continue to loose everytime a torrie is elected. We are slowly turning into our American Counter Parts. Before we know it we wont have health care any more, the rich will get richer, and the poor will get poorer. The middle class will cease to exist. Students will suffer, and children won't have doctors to go to. The environment will continue to suffer because big business has nothing to worry about, Harper doesn't care about the environment, it's likely the very last thing to consider on his agenda.

I am sickened.

Thankfully it is a minority, and the other parties can bring some of their agendas to the for front. I feel bad that the green party didn't get even one seat. It would have been nice to hear from them, and see them bring something to the house of commons.
The NDP I think did really well this election. I am glad to see them gain some seats. Good on you Jack Layton.

Of all the parties, I belive that the liberals really didn't do as well as I thought they should have. They lost seats to both the Torries, and NDP. (a blog post about this might show up in the next couple of days...) I was really disapointed with the liberals.

I can't believe how strange it is that an election took place last night and we are still in the same place as we were in yesterday morning.
Sad.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Google Image Search 7

After my post today I thought I would search out the word "Bonding".
This is what google came up with:







The worst part of this is that the guy in the picture above looks really familiar....






Why am I always suprised when....

... a touching moment happens between myself and some one who is not in my immediate circle of friends.
In fact I have had 2 of these moments with 2 of the ladies I work with at this new office.
One was with this lovely lady who is one of those people who has an incredible sense of identity. Strong and funny.
Then there is a young newlywed (literally got married 2 weeks ago) who is coming into her own as a step parent.
Both of these women seem to have a strong understanding of hurt and having their world turned upside down. Both of these women have held it together and continue to live out their day to day lives with out even the slightest moment of weakness.

One has crones, it affected her life to the point where she had to have her bowels removed.
She looks healthier than I do. (I know that doesn't say much), but she looks to be in perfect health. She jokes and laughs about everything that comes her way. She doesn't seem to get upset very easily.

The is young and looks so vibrant. It could just be that she is still all bubbly from her recent nuptials, but I think she is just naturally like that.
Today we talked a little about body image, and how she doesn't see what other see about her figure. I could totally relate. I think I look like I weigh at least 500 lbs, but others around me say that I have a nice shape.
I look in the mirror in horror every day, others say I look nice.
She battles these same issues. It felt good to be able to speak to some one actually understands, this is not to say that my friends don't understand because they go through similar things with self image, but they are younger, A GAZZILION times THINNER, and more beautiful than I ever could hope to be.
Any how, I just felt that it was awesome to be able to bond a little with the people I work with, especially considering the horror story of a work place I had come from.
It's just nice to work with people that you have something in common with... Regardless of what it may be. Commonality is a good thing.

There is also another sweet girl who works here, and with whom I spend most of my time with at the office. She is smart and has a good sence of who she is, and what she believes in. I can say that I am glad to know people who have ideals.

So far so good.
:D

Cheers to my new work mates.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

All by my self.....

....Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore!
Ok so I am not typically some one to quote Celine Dion but in this case I thought it would be ok.
So here I am at the office....
... and there's not a single soul here to keep me company.
I have the front door open just so I can here the sounds of civilization, but it's not enough.

Sure it's nice not having to train some one, and especially nice not to have to deal with alot of paper work... but with out any one here I can't escape to grab a coffee or a smoke.
I may not even be able to go pee.... WTH???

Any how. I got paid today... I think I might want to go shopping again.
I picked up a couple of cute things already today, but I NEED MORE!
I bought this cute 3/4 sleeve sweater with a belt, and I also purchased this Kinzie cardigan thingy.
It's really nice I might wear it on Sunday to the Wedding I will be attending.
It's so freaking dead tonight.

I think I am going to catch up on some tv. :D

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Am I dreaming???

Any how I meant to post about this a couple of nights ago, but got slightly side tracked.
I was watching the old boob tube when I stumbled across one of those tabloid tv shows. I stopped channel surfing because they were interviewing Russel Crowe about his new film Body of Lies.
I have heard alot about this film in a short time so I thought I would wait and see what he would say about his new movie, and co-star Leo Dicap.
I thought I was paying attention until I thought he said something about a flight being as uncomfortable and as long as a "Greek girl getting a bikini wax" or something to that effect. He even made a comment about how it may have been in bad taste.
I've searched online to see if I could find a clip of the interview, but haven't yet.
IF... He said what I thought he said I am so pissed right now.
Why first of all is it ok to make fun of GREEK women but not others. Why is it OK to constantly be the butt of all kinds of jokes, but it's NOT ok for us to crack jokes about others.
SERIOUSLY....
First of all Russel crow must have been exposed to some "OTHER" nationalities punanays that were unshaven... as my husband says there's 2 kinds of people in this world Greeks and those who wish they were. It completely obvious to me that he came across some other kind of Australian forest biznatch wanna be Greek, because Greek hoes up in this hood take care of their pubes.
There are many other nationalities, that I would consider to be genetically closer to a yeti than women of HELLENIC decent.
I don't want to rate hairry girls or anything, but seriously Italian, Armenian, Arabic, Albanian.... I could go on for a while...
Sure their all stereo types... but that's the point I guess. that's why it's not ok. That's why these types of comments are considered to be "ignorant" or even "racist" in nature. I don't like to drag my self into ignorant conversations. I was just so surprised that some one in the public eye could make a comment like this on television, in front of who knows how many people.
I am especially shocked and amazed that no one else caught it or made comment about it (then again seeing as I haven't found another post about it I may be the only person who saw it!).
I'm pissed so I posted an especially hideous photo of the offender.
He looks like he ate some one out of house and home, forgot to shower for 3 months and borrowed some hobos clothing in this pic.
SO THERE! GRRRRRRR....... Crash Angry!

Brides Maid Dresses...

So ... I am going to be the maid of honor for my friend Liz's Wedding. She is getting married in Aug. 09. I am really excited, but not so good at picking dresses. I thought I would do some research to help her out with her decisions for us girls. I think that she once said she would like us to be in formal dresses (this means they have to be long) and I think she said the colour is going to be lavender, or lilac or something like that.
I did my best to pick out some possibilities that might look good on all the girls regardless of body type.

I tried to find the one on top here in a lilac colour but had no luck... It seems like a decent dress and it could be fun. The ones just below is really nice too. I think its going to be difficult to chose one. What do you guys think?


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