From the Depths Below...

I feel like I just crawled out from under the worlds dirtiest ronchiest rock. Sleep has escaped me all week and it's as if I am walking in Bizzaro world today.
Last night when I left the office I forgot to forward the phones. This is not a good thing.
I went to pick up my husband from work, did an emergency grocery shop, spoke to a couple of my friends for like 5 mins, then I went to lie down. I tossed and turned all night long until I had to drive my husband to work this morning. I drove back home in the hopes of taking a shower but I was so tired I finally got the chance to take a nap on the couch. Exactly one hour later I awoke to my alarm, got dressed and dragged my sorry butt to work.
Sometimes I wonder what I am doing here.
Why do I bother.
It's going to be another tight week, and I am afraid of what may or may not transpire.
This month and the lack of hours at work has been the biggest contributing factor to my insomnia. I can barely get the crazy thoughts out of my head long enough to close my eyes. I wish it were different, but it's not. I have a few worries that seem to nag at me like a reoccurring nightmare.
Something needs to change. I might need to seek out professional help if this were to continue, or worst case scenario I would just continue to loose sleep until my body shuts it's self down and I pass on.
I can't believe what fabulous options these are.

Give me strength it's just one more day until tomorrow.